I was home alone. Again. I thought I was used to being alone, since Craig has been an over-the-road trucker driver for the last 5 years, and our nest is empty.
My daughter and her husband had stayed with us for over three weeks in December and I got used to having them around. Then they went back home Monday. Craig had been home on vacation for over a week, and he left again on Tuesday.
I did pretty well Tuesday night, coming home from work to a quiet house. Percy (our dog) and I spent the evening together. But last night was a different story. It may have been partly because I was paying bills (yuck!) and the fact that I found out when I talked to Craig that he had hit a deer the night before and there was major cosmetic damage to his truck.
But after moping around all evening feeling lonely, here is what God finally spoke into my heart:
"You are lonely because you have chosen to be lonely."
Wow! I was blown away by that. But the more I think about it, the more I know it is true.
God says in His Word,
“Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5, Deuteronomy 31:6
and Jesus said,
"I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20
It even says in Psalm 68:6 that God makes a home for the lonely.
So when I am feeling lonely I need to read His Word and remember His promises and spend more time with Him.
But there are also other things I
The point is, I chose to sit around, feeling sorry for myself, and feeling lonely.
Thank goodness today is a new day, and that I am still teachable. Praise God that He speaks to us in our hearts, gently correcting us, giving us wisdom.
Now when loneliness threatens to overwhelm me, I know what to do. Do you?