Sunday, October 11, 2009

Another Week

Here it is Sunday night, and I am alone again. For another week. Craig and I had a great weekend at the cabin. Even though it snowed! We slept in a little bit, organized the guest bedroom, built some shelves, and watched the Vikings game. Craig even got in a bit of time at his shop, and we had a great breakfast over at his mom's house.
But when we got back home, Craig had to leave to go back on the road. He needs to be in Iowa by tomorrow morning. I am really getting tired of being alone all week. I don't have any answers about what we could do differently. So I just keep praying about it. Craig asked me earlier today if I could have one wish, what would it be? Here is my answer - I want to be together at least every evening after work, and I want to participate in some form of ministry together. I don't know if it would be up north at our cabin, or here at home. I don't know what kind of ministry - delivering meals on wheels, teaching Sunday School, visiting shut-ins, working at a shelter, etc.

But, it seems that for now, God's answer to my prayer is to wait. I want to be thankful for my job and Craig's job. We do feel that He provided these jobs for us. I want to be thankful for all we have. But I don't want to look back at my life and wonder why we spent so much time apart. What was so important about working that we were willing to sacrifice time together?
I will wait for God's answer, and I will keep going to work, keep trying to be a witness at my job, keep my eyes open for people that I can share God's love with, and keep trying to live one day at a time- enjoying each day. And I will keep talking to God about the desire of my heart- to be with Craig.


Carrie B said...

I don't know how you do it. I admire that you two have worked it out for so long, but I will be praying for you that your wishes might come true!

Stephanie Balvin said...

Someone once told me, "If you are doing something just for money, than that's the wrong reason"
I can't remember who told me, but it has stuck with me. Not sure what that does for you, but felt like I should pass it on. Love you guys and you are in my prayers.